The Crush

She was looking at me and my eyes were completely focused on her. She was unceasingly coming nearer and nearer. No blink, no noise, no feeling, no heartbeat even, everything was just static, no sense at all, I was numb. It’s been long since I have seen such a elegance and beauty, and the typical human habit of staring at the beautiful affairs is something I was quite used to. The seconds were quite countable as I was still gazing into those beautiful black circular points inside her eye balls. It seems “now this is just the life and nothing else”. Felt the first heart pulse after a long time but a harder one, blood started moving again over the arteries, reaching its destinations, collecting carbon mixed impure stocks over veins and circulating through the blood system of the body and the body sensed a sudden aliveness, but eyes were still dead on its mark and no flashes. She approached nearer just few foot across, and I was confident that she got the same numbness what I was experiencing. The eyes were looped and she was coming closer and closer, the heart was motioning slower and slower, and I was counting the milliseconds. I was actually standing just in front of my College notice board on the very first day of my Post Grads studies, and was looking for section B time table. She came more closer, was just few inches away from me, kept looking at me. A feeling that she is counting my heartbeat stuck me, she was not just beautiful, she was gorgeous and graceful. But then something happened unexpected, she smiled, (Me: why is this smile, I am not at all smiling) and a sudden chuckle whacked me out of all my fantasies “Aye Hi… Is the section B timetable published”? Lightening struck to all over my calf love feeling which just broke out a few seconds earlier, I was still staring those beautiful eyes but with my just transformed more widely eyelids and the feeling of “shock-laga”, had no answer for her sudden inquiry. She shrugged, and was scarcely looking at me with all "question mark" gestures and shrunken forehead. “Oye Hero…” one more giggle, and on the spur of the moment I realized that I was living a fake moment.
The feeling was sudden, strong and striking. It was like I have seen the life in the a split second under the flash of the instant lightening strike. This was the moment that demolished my heart, the moment that blown my feelings, the moment that made me so light and drifted me above the ground, and the moment that taught me what is called "Love at first sight".

Disclaimer: This work is fictitious in nature and any resemblance to any person or event is merely coincidental... :)

Shivendra Singh
25 Oct. 2009

Wake Up Siv...!!!

Date: 08 Oct. 2009, Day: Thursday

Huffing Puffing reached home at 7:30 Am... thought of having a minuscule nap... A/C was on... Amit was on his bed in deep slumber... the environment was a perfect relaxing... and I started ZZZ....!!!

Alarm.... 8:00 Am... Buzzz Buzzz... who cares... let me have for 5 more minutes.. snoozed... Buzz Buzz again in 5 minutes.... oh ho... what the hell... swithched off, and dived into the dreamland.

Got up with puffy eyes and shocked hairs... what's the time man... 8:26 Am...!!! OMG.... and what's my office time 9:00 Am.. Oh no...!!!

The best thought was to fall back and doze again as nothing can happen now... late for 1 minutes or 30 minutes gonna be same... my half day's salary was going to be a bad debt... and will be written off from my salary slip for next month...!!! emotion: Confused

The brain was running so fast... every second was generating thousands of ideas... and my body was not responding to any of them... It's 8:27 Am now.

Finally only two option running around... left side... give up.... right side... don't give up... give up... don't give up... give up... don't give up... don't give up... don't give up... the last push can make a difference... don't give up... and finally zeroed down at 8:28... 8:29 was inside for shower... 8:30 rubbing soap all around... 8:32 rinsing the soap before it could yeild enough lather... 8:35 out... time check.. in 5 Minutes... what an efficiency... but quality was missing...!!! emotion: Tensed, thought: Why have I bought my new Deo... the addidas one.

Ran towards the "God & Deitie" - picture's prayer corner (Puja Place) in the apartment... lit agarbatti... murmured few mantra... thought: God, Forgive me today, I am late, ...what's the time now... 8:40... noooooo...!!!

Raju... I am not going to have my breakfast... parcel it to me.... instructed to my cook...!!!

8:45... was dressed up... shirt, pant, belt... badge... wallet... hanki... mobile... shoes... with socks obiviously... anything missing... yupp... Tie... yupp... Tie pin... no no no... opened the drawer picked up the tie without giving any thought of the match... put it into my shirt's pocket, picked up the tie pin... slipped it inside my pant's back pocket... time check... 8:47...!!!

Rajuuuuu, where the hell is my tiffin... put a spoon there along with Daliya and also put some Ghonghura Pickel... 8:48... got the tiffin.... rushed for my bike...!!! emotion: Strained

8:50... Swithched on... pressed the ignition, gear, took a steep U-turn and throttled... must have yarn-dyed at least few girls of the hostel if somebody would have been looking. Clutch, Gear, Throttle... Honk... Repeat - 1,2,3,4.......!!! First Square cleared... green light.... time check... 8:54.... oh.. traffic... thought: hell these guys don't know how to drive... driving like a lazy buggers in the morning, look here this is how one should drive... Clutch, Gear, Throttle... Honk... gear up... gear down.... speed up... brakes... gear up/down... boom... boom...!!!

Approaching second square.. time check...8:57... oh... green light... thought: if I miss this green light... I gonna miss my salary... noway... throttle... maximum...green remained green...reached before red... steep U-turn again.... steep left turn... in the parking... time check 8:58...2 more minutes to go...!!!

Rushed to catch the Lift... out of 4 just 1 was working... thought: "things go worst when you actually need them" except the traffic lights today... what saved me...!!! 1 Lift.... 8 people waiting... all office colleagues... lift no-way gonna work... took the stair... for 7th floor... Time check 8:59... and 30 Seconds...!!! Avg. 5 seconds for one floor...7 Floors... 35 Seconds... on-time... thought: I will manage even if I reach before the clock show 9:01.

Reached office...time Check... Wrist-watch... 9:00... Office wall clock... 8:59... safe.. safe...safe.... saved the cents...!!!

Relaxing... scratching the head, forehead and face... why is it rough... beard.. oh... forgot to shave...!!! emotion: Traumatized

Company Goal Element: Quality in People, Supporting Culture: Appearance, Supporting Instruction: Must shave daily.

And who I am... the Quality Rep of the Branch...!!!
thought/emotion: &%^#@*&%^$#%&^#@

Shivendra Singh
08 Oct. 2009

India is my country

The term Gandhi and Gandhism is again accented by our filmism a couple of years back... Yes, can't forget the flick Lage Raho Munna Bhai. Bollywood is more creative and offbeat these days, and we have seen more and more un-conventional works...!!!

02 Oct. is recognised and remembered as the b'day of our Father of Nation, but it's also the birthday of our former prime-minister Mr. Lal Bhahadur Shastri. Father of nation has overshadowed everybody else in the country, but we still see that the Young Generation (Yo-G) regards Mahatama Gandhi less than the other Garam Dall (Hot Blooded) Leaders who fought for the independence of the country. Yo-G of India with hot-blood and vibrant ideas feel that, the peaceful and somber path choosen by Mahatma Gandhi has actually delayed our war, and held back the freedom by a couple of decades. How correct is this ? and who are the people spreading all this grapevines into the minds of our Yo-G that Gandhi Ji was not right? Why is that a significant percentage of our Yo-Gs don't pay the required degree of respect for Gandhi Ji what he actually deserves ?

Gandhi Ji was not leading a set of immature civilized countrymen, but he was spearheading a movement consisting of matured and grown Indian. He was not a dictator who drove people by forcing them to be the part of his movement, instead it was the decision of the people to participate in the peaceful crusade and cause visualizing a free and democratic India. Then why do we at times blame the right person for the wrong reason.

Critics is required, but it's the most easy thing a man can do... when a person can not do anything he does criticism. It's so easy to pick apart the ideas and themes thrown by Gandhi jee instead of following it.

A man is always born with good things and bad... the personality has the mixture of fair and unfair stuffs. The ratio of this combination keeps changing person to person but it can never be 0 : 1 or 1 : 0, Nobody is perfect positively or negatively, we just keep reducing and keep increasing the weight of either side but we still want to see others complete.

Gandhi is the biggest, greatest and handsomest brand ambassador personality of our country. He is the one who taught world the impact and significance of peace. A gray spot on the image of the brand ambassador of any product impacts hugely on the product. We have made Gandhi Ji our brand ambassador, and thriving the ikon from last more than half century, now there is no turning back. Gandhi Jee is the part of depiction of the nation, he is the father of nation, and now we YO-Gs should come together to enhance the persona of our country by heightening the images of all that is the part of fancy of our nation.

A nation is nothing but an envision... let's improve the image.
Start giving more value to MG than to MJ...!!!

Shivendra Singh
04 Oct. 2009