An Instance

Waiting List ticket not allowed me to board the train today... I was sad.... but at the same time I was trying to be normal. Went to Kapaleshwar Temple when I went to buy sankha in the evening after knowing I am not going to board today's train.

I bought a Sankha there at Giri Trading, and came back to take my bike. Suddenly an old guy came from back side, and stood in front of me and my bike. He was not less than 60-70 Yrs, white bearded and haired. He came nearer to me and said something in Tamil. I thought he is a beggar and asking for some monetary help, so I replied him... Tamil Teriyaad... "I don't know Tamil" so that I can neglect him and move on, but to my reply he came back asking me in very good english lingo "Do you know english?". I was surprised and shocked to see him speaking in such a sophisticated and decent style... he asked for a favour in very formal way... "Can you drop me to Sangeeta Hotel ?, My friend is coming to pick me up there" which was hardly 300-500 Meters from that the temple location where I was standing, but I didnt know where it was. I certainly had doubt... I started getting many thoughts about the prospective victim I was going to be. But looking at his age I accepted his request however I was still not very keen to help him. While sitting back side on my bike's seat he was addressing me as "baba" multiple number of times and trying to speak to me with is sober and soft gentle way. He was asking many questions about me like Where do I stay?, Where am I from?, What do I do?, Where am I going now etc etc. which again started cropping more doubtful question marks in my mind. He was showing me the way as I was not aware about the route in that area. Finally I got a relief when I saw Sangeeta hotel infront of me... He got down from my bike... I don't know why But I said "Thank You" to him... And I really don't know why I thanked him.... to which he replied... "Thank to God..., He is the director, we are just actors"... He looked at me and smiled, to which I smiled back and he moved on, however I was still looking at him.

The next thought came to me... Was he God....???
My brain started working very fast but my nerve were relaxed... I was calm and had some sense of satisfaction...!!!

Shivendra Singh
23 Dec 2009

The time works... more...

Many things to do in life and I am occupied with some stuffs which are least important. I am also engaged with few affairs which are very important. “Making the work fun” is motto given by many…. But what is work?

For me playing cricket is fun but not for Sachin, it is his profession. For me riding a car may be just to pass the time, freak around or travel, but may be for Narain Karthikeyan it’s a work life. So the thing that provides me living, or commercializes me... is work, in brief all other are just hobbies, interests or a sidelines... or whatever you call it. The job which I am doing, and selling to people is my work… and the one who is buying is my consumer... the one who buys my traits that I am selling.

Whatever I sell in my life, I always keep selling my time along with that… my time. Actually as per my view we all sell our time only… what matters is how effectively we commercialize our time… how can I make my time costlier than others… what should I do? How should I find who is my target consumer, and will they buy my time and pay me better?

Micro-Economics, Theory of Micro Economics: Demand and Supply. If Demand is more and supply is less the price increases, and price reduces when it’s opposite. What I am selling via my time is the product and if the demand is higher and supply is less I will get better deal for my time. For instance I am working in a company as a quality representative, if I got to increase my time-price I have to find out the quality area where there are very few people exist as I can not change the demand of the market, I can only work on supply. If I am able to be the part of that niche group for whom the demand is huge I will be able to quote myself at very high price level, and If I remain at the same place where there are lots of people available I have no margin for negotiation.

Micro Economics is something that is applicable at many places, and economics is something that is actually driving the world and providing it a great equilibrium to stay in peace with billion and billion of human master minds. May be the above mentioned fact is not quite clear, as the perception differs from person to person, and you will always find an exception for everything however I was just giving generalized thought of my mind boggling ideas which I keep getting while ideating.

I may be right… you never know.

Shivendra Singh
29 Nov. 2009

Bad words first

"Learn the Bad words first..."


This is the common thing I heard from the people whenever I have been to any place where I was not familiar with the regional language. I was in Andhra for a long time, and then in Tamilnadu but believe me I still don't know any bad word in Tamil except "Adda Paavi" and that too is not bad, it's in fact used in general conversation here. The logic behind learning the bad words first is too find out if somebody is abusing you... but the question is why should I know if somebody is abusing me. I feel that if I know the abusive words I will definitely react to that, and will put myself in a self generated problems. If I don't know, the matter will end then and there, and I will not have to carry a guilt or stress to back to home with me.

It happens very often to us that we hear something bad about us but can not react because of some or other reason, we are angry but can not do anything, we grind our teeth and keep the anger inside, we carry that ire with us to home , and eventually that leads to many problems. Ignoring something that will ignite a rage in you is the best thing one should do, but how to ignore. Simple, don't learn what you don't want to hear from people.

I have been definitely abused by many Autowalas here many time but I don't know what they are talking about. Whenever they show me a frustrated, raged face and abuse me I react back with a gag and long loud laugh... when they try to insult me I find that very moment very funny and I don't know why it forces me to laugh out louder. Ha ha ha...:) and rather than insulting me they feel utter shameful for what they have done.

They must be taking that insult back to home. I move on wearing a relaxing smile even after a great argument with Autowalas, and that's because I don't know what they were talking about....!!!

Shivendra Singh
07 Nov. 2009

The Crush

She was looking at me and my eyes were completely focused on her. She was unceasingly coming nearer and nearer. No blink, no noise, no feeling, no heartbeat even, everything was just static, no sense at all, I was numb. It’s been long since I have seen such a elegance and beauty, and the typical human habit of staring at the beautiful affairs is something I was quite used to. The seconds were quite countable as I was still gazing into those beautiful black circular points inside her eye balls. It seems “now this is just the life and nothing else”. Felt the first heart pulse after a long time but a harder one, blood started moving again over the arteries, reaching its destinations, collecting carbon mixed impure stocks over veins and circulating through the blood system of the body and the body sensed a sudden aliveness, but eyes were still dead on its mark and no flashes. She approached nearer just few foot across, and I was confident that she got the same numbness what I was experiencing. The eyes were looped and she was coming closer and closer, the heart was motioning slower and slower, and I was counting the milliseconds. I was actually standing just in front of my College notice board on the very first day of my Post Grads studies, and was looking for section B time table. She came more closer, was just few inches away from me, kept looking at me. A feeling that she is counting my heartbeat stuck me, she was not just beautiful, she was gorgeous and graceful. But then something happened unexpected, she smiled, (Me: why is this smile, I am not at all smiling) and a sudden chuckle whacked me out of all my fantasies “Aye Hi… Is the section B timetable published”? Lightening struck to all over my calf love feeling which just broke out a few seconds earlier, I was still staring those beautiful eyes but with my just transformed more widely eyelids and the feeling of “shock-laga”, had no answer for her sudden inquiry. She shrugged, and was scarcely looking at me with all "question mark" gestures and shrunken forehead. “Oye Hero…” one more giggle, and on the spur of the moment I realized that I was living a fake moment.
The feeling was sudden, strong and striking. It was like I have seen the life in the a split second under the flash of the instant lightening strike. This was the moment that demolished my heart, the moment that blown my feelings, the moment that made me so light and drifted me above the ground, and the moment that taught me what is called "Love at first sight".

Disclaimer: This work is fictitious in nature and any resemblance to any person or event is merely coincidental... :)

Shivendra Singh
25 Oct. 2009

Wake Up Siv...!!!

Date: 08 Oct. 2009, Day: Thursday

Huffing Puffing reached home at 7:30 Am... thought of having a minuscule nap... A/C was on... Amit was on his bed in deep slumber... the environment was a perfect relaxing... and I started ZZZ....!!!

Alarm.... 8:00 Am... Buzzz Buzzz... who cares... let me have for 5 more minutes.. snoozed... Buzz Buzz again in 5 minutes.... oh ho... what the hell... swithched off, and dived into the dreamland.

Got up with puffy eyes and shocked hairs... what's the time man... 8:26 Am...!!! OMG.... and what's my office time 9:00 Am.. Oh no...!!!

The best thought was to fall back and doze again as nothing can happen now... late for 1 minutes or 30 minutes gonna be same... my half day's salary was going to be a bad debt... and will be written off from my salary slip for next month...!!! emotion: Confused

The brain was running so fast... every second was generating thousands of ideas... and my body was not responding to any of them... It's 8:27 Am now.

Finally only two option running around... left side... give up.... right side... don't give up... give up... don't give up... give up... don't give up... don't give up... don't give up... the last push can make a difference... don't give up... and finally zeroed down at 8:28... 8:29 was inside for shower... 8:30 rubbing soap all around... 8:32 rinsing the soap before it could yeild enough lather... 8:35 out... time check.. in 5 Minutes... what an efficiency... but quality was missing...!!! emotion: Tensed, thought: Why have I bought my new Deo... the addidas one.

Ran towards the "God & Deitie" - picture's prayer corner (Puja Place) in the apartment... lit agarbatti... murmured few mantra... thought: God, Forgive me today, I am late, ...what's the time now... 8:40... noooooo...!!!

Raju... I am not going to have my breakfast... parcel it to me.... instructed to my cook...!!!

8:45... was dressed up... shirt, pant, belt... badge... wallet... hanki... mobile... shoes... with socks obiviously... anything missing... yupp... Tie... yupp... Tie pin... no no no... opened the drawer picked up the tie without giving any thought of the match... put it into my shirt's pocket, picked up the tie pin... slipped it inside my pant's back pocket... time check... 8:47...!!!

Rajuuuuu, where the hell is my tiffin... put a spoon there along with Daliya and also put some Ghonghura Pickel... 8:48... got the tiffin.... rushed for my bike...!!! emotion: Strained

8:50... Swithched on... pressed the ignition, gear, took a steep U-turn and throttled... must have yarn-dyed at least few girls of the hostel if somebody would have been looking. Clutch, Gear, Throttle... Honk... Repeat - 1,2,3,4.......!!! First Square cleared... green light.... time check... 8:54.... oh.. traffic... thought: hell these guys don't know how to drive... driving like a lazy buggers in the morning, look here this is how one should drive... Clutch, Gear, Throttle... Honk... gear up... gear down.... speed up... brakes... gear up/down... boom... boom...!!!

Approaching second square.. time check...8:57... oh... green light... thought: if I miss this green light... I gonna miss my salary... noway... throttle... maximum...green remained green...reached before red... steep U-turn again.... steep left turn... in the parking... time check 8:58...2 more minutes to go...!!!

Rushed to catch the Lift... out of 4 just 1 was working... thought: "things go worst when you actually need them" except the traffic lights today... what saved me...!!! 1 Lift.... 8 people waiting... all office colleagues... lift no-way gonna work... took the stair... for 7th floor... Time check 8:59... and 30 Seconds...!!! Avg. 5 seconds for one floor...7 Floors... 35 Seconds... on-time... thought: I will manage even if I reach before the clock show 9:01.

Reached office...time Check... Wrist-watch... 9:00... Office wall clock... 8:59... safe.. safe...safe.... saved the cents...!!!

Relaxing... scratching the head, forehead and face... why is it rough... beard.. oh... forgot to shave...!!! emotion: Traumatized

Company Goal Element: Quality in People, Supporting Culture: Appearance, Supporting Instruction: Must shave daily.

And who I am... the Quality Rep of the Branch...!!!
thought/emotion: &%^#@*&%^$#%&^#@

Shivendra Singh
08 Oct. 2009

India is my country

The term Gandhi and Gandhism is again accented by our filmism a couple of years back... Yes, can't forget the flick Lage Raho Munna Bhai. Bollywood is more creative and offbeat these days, and we have seen more and more un-conventional works...!!!

02 Oct. is recognised and remembered as the b'day of our Father of Nation, but it's also the birthday of our former prime-minister Mr. Lal Bhahadur Shastri. Father of nation has overshadowed everybody else in the country, but we still see that the Young Generation (Yo-G) regards Mahatama Gandhi less than the other Garam Dall (Hot Blooded) Leaders who fought for the independence of the country. Yo-G of India with hot-blood and vibrant ideas feel that, the peaceful and somber path choosen by Mahatma Gandhi has actually delayed our war, and held back the freedom by a couple of decades. How correct is this ? and who are the people spreading all this grapevines into the minds of our Yo-G that Gandhi Ji was not right? Why is that a significant percentage of our Yo-Gs don't pay the required degree of respect for Gandhi Ji what he actually deserves ?

Gandhi Ji was not leading a set of immature civilized countrymen, but he was spearheading a movement consisting of matured and grown Indian. He was not a dictator who drove people by forcing them to be the part of his movement, instead it was the decision of the people to participate in the peaceful crusade and cause visualizing a free and democratic India. Then why do we at times blame the right person for the wrong reason.

Critics is required, but it's the most easy thing a man can do... when a person can not do anything he does criticism. It's so easy to pick apart the ideas and themes thrown by Gandhi jee instead of following it.

A man is always born with good things and bad... the personality has the mixture of fair and unfair stuffs. The ratio of this combination keeps changing person to person but it can never be 0 : 1 or 1 : 0, Nobody is perfect positively or negatively, we just keep reducing and keep increasing the weight of either side but we still want to see others complete.

Gandhi is the biggest, greatest and handsomest brand ambassador personality of our country. He is the one who taught world the impact and significance of peace. A gray spot on the image of the brand ambassador of any product impacts hugely on the product. We have made Gandhi Ji our brand ambassador, and thriving the ikon from last more than half century, now there is no turning back. Gandhi Jee is the part of depiction of the nation, he is the father of nation, and now we YO-Gs should come together to enhance the persona of our country by heightening the images of all that is the part of fancy of our nation.

A nation is nothing but an envision... let's improve the image.
Start giving more value to MG than to MJ...!!!

Shivendra Singh
04 Oct. 2009

Man, it's Common Sense

"Common sense is not so common"

It's been told very often... Use you common sense. We have been hearing this whenever we do mistakes... well it's different thing that we never intend to do mistakes... it just happens.

Is Common Sense is really common or most uncommon is a part of discussion from a long time. And what exactly is this Common Sense.. let's understand this word Common Sense... Common (Public, means that with everybody) Sense (Feel or Sensation). So it is something that is perceived right by public... it is actual the obvious thing. So if you have common sence it means you are actually taking care of the most obivious stuffs while taking your decision.

Contrasting to the above I also assume that Common Sence differs from level to level. What can be Common Sense for somebody, may be intellect thinking for me. I mean knowledge seems a part of Common Sense at times... and we keep working hard to improve our Common Sense by adding more and more knowledge, experience and exposure. Sometimes it is again different, considering common sense a basis sense of taking decision while if we add knowledge to Common Sense it empowers us take decision more wisely as it generate greater wisdom in us. At the same time even if we have a strong knowlege of subject and not using our basis obvious thinking it may lead to greater stupidity.

I think we have started increasing the scope of Common Sense and bugging out logical thinking also as part of it, but may be it's actually the ability to use native intelligence with logic and proper reasoning is Common Sense. Now I can see that Common Sense is becoming so tough to understand and at the same time it is not a common thing for all for sure. So to execute common sense we need to consider and interrelate surroundings, do logical calulcations, give a big damn to obvious stuffs, involve our native intelligence, acquired knowldge, experinces and exposures.

The Sense is common to everybody however the degree of usage is different and depends on person to person. Somebody is able to utilise it more, however some people may hardly be. The magnitude of common sense keeps changing generation over generation, and the gravity keeps increasing.

Henry Ward Beecher... The Philosphy for one century is the common sense of the next.

Shivendra Singh

30 Sept. 2009

Keep the Change

Change... for the better... for the future... for the fitter...!!!

We all know change is the only thing that never changes... it is a fate... and we can not run away.

We sometimes, actually most of the time make ourselves standard and want people to change accordingly but to the highest degree we are not correct. Things around me is anyway going to change but what "I" have to do to keep altering "the situation" or "me", and that's the Bramhastra.

Why do we call today's world so fast, furious and fiery, it's possibly because the interval between the changes is quite short and rather frequent. One can not stay at the same level for long time to keep oneself at top, though the position is same however the efforts, energy and inertia keep changing. In spite of the fact that change will be there, we fear change, we avoid change and we try to flee from it. We have the fear of something that sometimes even we don't know. We have the resistance to change since we are comfortable now, we don't want to change as we don't need it. We have thousands of view points about "why to change"... sometimes it becomes an ego issue.

There are two angles that need to be considered when there is a change. First, how do we comprehend the change and second, are we actually prepared for change. Perception is all about our attitude, and preparation is all about our vision and pro-active behavior. Developing a good attitude towards changes and being agile will make life pretty easy in this electrically moving world. So don't change for change, but change for change.

I remember somebody said, If you're in a bad situation, don't worry it'll change. If you're in a good situation, don't worry it'll change. So Change is Inevitable but yes, it is Manageable.

Shivendra Singh
18 Sept 2009

Bear an Advantageous Comparison

We have been told many times to not compare ourselves with others. Luckily I read a similar article in ET yesterday under the one segment I love to spend time and muse around my thoughts,"Cosmic Uplink". It says that why should we compare ourselves with other? Each human being is different and has the different capability, skill, knowledge and traits, then why should we compare? May be there are many who like to go ahead with this logic however I don't find it very compatible to my thought process. In fact I think that comparison is required, it should be there and comparison only adds spices in life, it actually makes life more interesting and easy.

Now the million dollar question is how the hell comparing is better than not comparing?

Comparison is required as this world is full of billions of competitors. Every human being is competing with other on the grounds of some common skills, knowledge and traits. Comparison provides us the areas or scopes we need to work on, it provide us the update on how far the light is at the end of the tunnel. A smart comparison helps us to improve from our present level, and a stupid compare lead us to envy, jealousy and dire strait state. A comparison full of simplicity and common sense is what we need to work on to derive the correct leading or lagging edge. Now it’s all about your attitude how you take the out-come of the comparison… either cry for what you don’t have or strive hard to get the same. Don’t compare richest man with the poorest man, don’t compare lion with a mouse, and don’t compare earth with sky. Use your common sense and compare with the proper comparability.

I am a live example who believes in comparing and love to do the same. When I feel good after achieving something, I enjoy the moment but at the same time I compare my self to somebody who is superior than me to set my quick goal. When I am depressed and not happy I compare me with somebody who is not performing as good as I am, or not having what I possess, this gives me a quick relief from my pain, hurt and anguish.

Life shapes up with the decisions we take, and decision is taken on the basis of some facts, logic and vision. Most of the time comparison also comes into picture while taking some decisions, so it is required to do a smart comparison. When I feel high I should not be complacent as that may create hindrance to my growth, at the same time when I feel low I should not further depress myself. Comparison will help us to jump out of our entire problems and taking the right decision at right time. Mix right attitude with the right comparison and see the difference…!!!

So, the only bind we have to keep in mind,
That…We have the intelligent and smart…
Comparison shop…!!!

Shivendra Singh

11 Sep 2009

Happiness is Inevitable

I love driving my bike on the traffic-free roads. It gives me a great feeling of silence and peacefulness, unless some guy comes back and starts honking for pass or just because he got that habit to do so. I just hate the people who honk without any reason.

Anyway I am not writing this to tell what I hate but to tell what I love to do.

Driving back from office in the late evening always makes me to think exorbitantly. I think about my day, I think about my life, I think about helluva things and deep dive into my thoughts. It's just 10-15 minute drive between the office and apartment however this short duration is a sort of meditation for me. Each day I think about lot of new things, and whenever I think about something I always plan for writing those thoughts in my blog. I generally don't update all my ideas and opinion, as most of the time I end up sitting late over social networking sites chatting with friends.

Today while driving back to home I was pondering about "Happiness", I was thinking about me... Am I happy or not? Of late I am working late in the office, and most of the time found myself struggling around quite a lot of things, all the same I never found it boring, or something that is screwing my happiness. Happiness is not what we perceive happiness is, it is something else and what is that I really don't know. Some people find happiness in their daily work, some people give more value to the small happiness they are experiencing every day, some people love to find happiness in breaking the iceberg. If I talk about me, I am a person who loves to enjoy any moment that has any possibility to make me happy. I am happy being late in office, I am happy being busy, I am happy when I do some mistake thinking I learned something, I am happy when I get more work from my boss, I am happy when friends call me up, I am happy when I write my blog, I am happy when people support me, I am happy when I get up early in the morning and go to gym, I am happy when I speak to my family members, I am happy when I buy gifts for loved ones, I am happy praying to God everyday. So, I have various reasons to be happy. These reasons may bring happiness for few moments only, but they bring smile in my life. Smile does not mean we are literally smiling, literal smile does not entail we are happy and a sad face never says that we are sorry. Sometimes we are happy with a sad face, and sad with a smiling lips.

Happiness is something which is hard to define as it is not universally measured with the same standard and norms. It is different for different people, country and culture. It differs from person to person.

For me happiness lies in small things, it's inevitable and I create it for myself. For me happiness lies in self satisfaction.

You may check, what is your Happiness Quotient...!!!

Shivendra Singh
02 Sept 2009